i wanna be like a tree

Today’s Monday. I met with Dawn at NUS in the afternoon for lunch, we talked lots lots lots like old times. She is an inspiration. Then we found my textbook at 1/3 the price in Oz woohoo! It comes with a color atlas as well, what a find. Though I did not pray about the textbook search but I see it as another blessing from God. :)

Returned home, felt a little funny, so I went to take a nap but I could not sleep. Body was feeling weary so I was meditating Matthew 11:28. Hmm but still felt funny. Mum and dad came home. I took my temperature, 36.6. Not so bad. 10 minutes I took it again, 37.6. Running a slight fever! Sigh no wonder head felt so heavy and hands and feet so cold.

During dinner, I was imagining a conversation with God.

“God, please heal me.”

“I will, after dinner. Eat.”

“Okay, I have faith in You. No faith then no healing..is it? Anyway, I have faith that You will heal me.”

“Enjoy your family time now. Don’t worry.”

So I thought, I bet the doctor won’t know what to do but just prescribe paracetamol. So might as well trust God. After dinner, took my temperature again, got a shock: 38.1! Conversation continues..

“God, err I thought You will heal me?”

“Yes I will, after dinner. I didn’t specify how long after dinner. Wait. This is your desperate moment, I want you to depend on me. Learn to.”

“Oh ya, I thought about it earlier on this day right..? Err. Ok thank You for the fever then.”

I took 2 panadol pills and went to bed wrapped up and feeling really cold. But I just could not sleep though I closed my eyes for 1 hour plus. Then I started feeling really warm, and I came out of bed. Gugu told me that it was probably too early, go do something else. So I went downstairs to play the piano. Played through a book of Chinese worship songs for 40 minutes, felt really good. Imagining angels singing, imagining my dad and aunt listening and feeling something stir in their hearts, imagining all uncleanness being washed out of the house with the blood of Christ. Praising God. Good feeling. Will miss my piano dearly when I leave. 

“我要向高山举目，我的帮助从何来？我的帮助从造天地的 耶和华而来。”

Went back to take my temperature, thank you God, temperature is dropping. 37.6. Now to typing and doing some Microsoft Word stuff.

Ok I don’t know why I’m recording such a post but I just feel happy to imagine conversations with God. :-) Please pray my fever goes away if you see this, thank you. :-)