i wanna be like a tree

Feeling a little woozy, light headed, warm (flushed?), touched and yet heavy hearted.

K hello to all the new readers to this tumblr. I don’t post much, so don’t need to stalk me. Hahaha. Thank you especially for spending time tonight. Feeling good after the meal and small talk and Don Moen’s songs. Thank you more than I can express.

Hmm.. nowadays everyone I meet ask me two main questions 1) When are you leaving? 2) How are you feeling? I can answer the first but never the second. How am I feeling? I don’t know. I really don’t know. I always thought I could organize my thoughts but on this, I don’t know. It kind of frustrates me that I cannot fathom what I am feeling deep down inside, as if my feelings are hiding from me. Everything feels extremely surreal. It’s hard to think that 3.5 weeks later I will be away from everything familiar in Singapore. It’s hard to imagine a few months down the road and I would not have physically met my family or my best friend C or saw my grandma or my cell or YH Tiff and the rest. Everything has grown so familiar; cell, church, friends, kindergarten, home, MRT lines etc. But as time waits for no man, nor will these things stay constant. It will all change. How do I feel? I don’t know.

Sentimental maybe. Stressed too.

My only constant is God. Thank God for being who He is.